| Dirges of a Konvict
Crystal
I'm stuck in a crystal world of you
Your face reflected everywhere
Wherever I turn it's all that I see
Your divine visage burned in memory
What's a mere mortal to do
Who's never seen radiance beyond compare?
Until now I've never felt so alive
Like I've finally resurfaced after a long, deep, dive
Eyes of vividly infinite blue
A goddess smiling at me; I can't help but stare
'Heaven', all my mind can say
And now I know I've lost myself today
I'm stuck in a crystal world of you
How I long to touch you for but a moment...
Author's notes: dedicated to someone...
Severed Wings
It's been two years but I'm still here...
Waiting right where you left me
I've been broken since you left; you can't possibly know
You left without a word though I begged you not to go
Now I'm drowning in my own tears
What have you done to me?
You know just how badly I wanted you to stay
Now it's all I can do, to remember til my dying day
My one hope of happiness, it's all but disappeared
And now I've reached the brink of my misery
You were my angel just yesterday...
Now I just want our memories to go away
It's been two years but I'm still here...
These severed wings won't take flight again
Author's notes: about my ex, favorite ko toh.
Rainfall
Again I walk in the endless rain
Just as I have a thousand times before
Nothing but heaven caressing me all over
Applauding at how I've finally forgotten her
Right now it's impossible for me to feel pain
Neither heart nor soul can be hurt anymore
Just the rain softly kissing my face
I open my arms to its frigid embrace
What I'm feeling now, I just can't explain
An undying devotion for that which I adore
Rainfall breaks the silence; such a heavenly sound
I never noticed that I hit the ground
Again I walk in the endless rain...
Again I forget just how much I'm crying...
Author's notes: nothing to say about this. Another breakup-ish work of mine.
Madness
Spent the years in darkness, waiting for the light of day
Our eyes met in that meeting of chance
Been dead for a while, but now I've been reborn
Like the clear blue sky after the storm
I didn't know this would happen; forgot that Fate loves to play
I welcomed it though it wasn't one of my plans
I lost my mind once my eyes caught your face
There's no way I'll let this shot go to waste
Couldn't think straight as I rolled on away
I can't say how utterly I was entranced
So now I'm typing this tribute to you
For someone incomparable, it's the least I can do
Spent the years in darkness, waiting for the light of day
And I know that your beautiful visage will remain...
Framed
I see your face through a window
Yet the window seems not there
Like I'm carressing you with an unyielding gaze
And right now I've lost all notion of time and space
Thinking of what we could do tomorrow
Should we go out to a movie or perhaps, a fair?
There's something I've wanted to tell you all this time
So just hear me out and listen to this rhyme
No more hurt for me, or sorrow
Happiness for me is but to stare
At your beautiful face smiling up at me
But then, a thought occurs to me suddenly...
I see your face through a window...
And I can't reach it though I try...
Stargazer
Stargazing for me tonight
Amidst the sacred stillness
Just the wind caressing me right now
I should be perfectly happy, somehow
Yet bliss escapes me; it isn't right
And the stars themselves seem lifeless
It's darker than usual; the moon won't show
So, why can't I smile? ...I don't really know
Dead and lightless, the stars that once shone bright
The night sky's beautiful yet soulless
Something's not right; there's something missing
And just like that, realization sends me reeling
Stargazing for me tonight...
But why aren't you beside me?
Forsaken
Trapped in this imitation of hell
Yet the torment seems like the real thing
Bullets and blades that rend my soul
A merciless dragon that swallows me whole
Why am I here? ...I can't tell
There seems no end to my maiming
What did I do to deserve this fate?
Or do the heavens regard me with contempt and hate?
For so long, this pain I've held
Why isn't this butchery ending?
I've been abandoned by my valkyrie
And still Death refuses to come to me
Trapped in this imitation of hell
Someone kill me and be done with it...
(Note: some words/phrases in the following work may not be suitable for young readers.)
Poison
v1
Have you any idea just what you do to me?
In the middle of the night when I wake up suddenly?
Just the thought of you sends my heart palpitating
The temperature drops and my pupils start dilating
And even the breeze seems to whisper your name
The memories of you about to drive me insane
Lost in you, right now I'm feeling so stupid
And everyone asks me if you're really worth it
Well of course you are, you just happen to be my goddess
Why else do you think you cause me such distress?
Chorus
I want you to know that I'll always be around for you
I set the grounds for your return; there's nothing else that I could do
I'm just lying in bed if you want to come home
There's not much to do when you're all alone
v2
What the hell are you, you drive me so crazy
I'll be your slave, you just have to sedate me
Every waking moment you're on my mind
I just feel like giving something back this time
My mind's a broken record that can only play your voice
But I still wouldn't fix it even if I had a choice
My eyes could just pop every time I see your face
That image of you, it's something I can't erase
And at night you make me wanna do my dance
Doing it again with you's just one of my plans (ch, then Br)
Bridge
But it's been five years now, you're still not here
I ain't cryin'; I'm too old for the tears
Christ knows that all I've done was for you
But if I'll never see you again, there's nothing I can do
Chorus-fin (2x)
How stupid of me to think that I might have a chance with you
I've been such an idiot to get screwed, to get fooled
I can't lie to myself that you'll ever come home
I might as well have just gone and got stoned
Have you any idea just what you do to me?
Every night, all I do is whack off to your memory...
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