Thread: Starting over.....

Well i got tired of crying and not eating so instead of keeping on being put to hang somewhere like he always does..... I decide to start again. I have cried all the tears I can till they wont come anymore. And like one of my favorite friends said...Life is better without the drama. and that drama doesn't suit me.

So when he told me that he freakishly hates me for not believing him...and to stay out of his F_way....then stay away i will.................

sometimes all it takes is a few days away to see the clearer picture....I don't think my heart is ready for any entanglement. Although i will believe him if he says he wants to come back and if he says he loves me but i need to like do this for my own good. I have lost my self esteem and my sense of being me along the way and I cant afford to loose my identity since I am a single mom. I dont want my son to see me crying coz of a broken heart...

While i gather the pieces and pick up myself, I still wonder sometimes ...Maybe if I did what he wanted ( which is not talk to the friends he doesnt like)....could he have changed? If things were different and I lived nearer him could he have taken me more serious ? Could he have avoided having others?

Just a thought ... but again like this entry said.... I am starting over and hopefully this brings a better ending.