I'd be happy from anyones input on this....
Does your past effect your present? Can it effect your future? If your past still impacts you, does that make you irrational? Does it mean you're holding on to something too strongly? If you were holding on to something... does that mean you're unhealthy?
I don't think it does.... but I'm not above being wrong.
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I feel too much.... I felt too much then, and I still feel it now. Pain, love, all of that. Whatever I was passionate about then, relates to what I'm passionate about now. Some things in my life have changed. But those changes don't feel like new sprouts... But, rather old trees. Trees that have just grown into something... larger.... more complex. No slates have been wiped clean. Who I am today, is just a more developed version of who I was yesterday... The same will likely apply to who I am tommorrow.
I dont WANT new sprouts, or fresh slates. Im connected with my past . I feel that connection serves a purpose. I have baggage, but whats in my suitcases is a part of me worth holding on to. Every tear that I hurt bad enough to shed... are tears that are way too precious to forget.
Besides... no one else is letting go. People are allowed to base their opinions of me, on however it is they've ALWAYS felt about me (in the past). I don't care aout anyone but myself, me me me. Thats the picture they paint of me...... Yet, so much of my past, and my present.... is centered around those I care about more than.... well, more than myself at times. T.T Im selfish? Word? Seems to me, my biggest downfall is caring too much about other people. People who will never understand... and never care about me in return.
So maybe my past IS unhealthy...
Should I let it go? If I did, I would probably become the selfish, uncaring person people are pegging me as anyway. If you put the shoe on me, I may as well wear it around the block.
Be careful what you wish for.
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