Thread: Changing Into Your Old Clothes

In a poor attempt to confirm some age old memory, E.D. decided to rummage through his Memory Safe.
The Memory Safe is a prized object of E.D.: A slightly-larger-than-small fire-proof safe that contains precious objects that relate to E.D.'s favorite moments in his past.

However, all safes are locked.
And this one needed a key to open.

And the key was only found in one place: A small pocket in a luggage hidden somewhere in his room.

Like a teen looking for a love letter, E.D. rummaged through his room desperately in a sad undertaking to find the luggage.
Joy filled his heart when he found the luggage, but saddened once he couldn't find the key within it.

"Dammit, I forgot I connected that key to my house keys."
His house keys, were (in)conveniently in the safe-keeping of Mags, his girlfriend.
Who was at work.

And so E.D. sat down and stared at his safe.
Wishing he could fish inside and find a treasure or two from that time.

With a slow and steady breath he closes his eyes and opens his right fist.
An old scrunchy, weathered and worn. Found within the very same luggage as the key.
One he used to wear back in his earlier years.

"Not as early as that, but it'll do." E.D. sighed to himself as he continued to play with the memories of the item.

Update:

^^; Nope, not there.
I suppose it's confession time:
Er... mags?
You know how you made me get rid of ALL of mei's stuff?

.... ^__^;;;;;;;; er........
Supposedly I kept ONE letter with me for YEARS.
<___< And uh...
It was in that safe. (originally it had been in a hidden slot in one of my old books)

^^; I more than likely threw it out the last time I cleaned out the safe.
>>; Probably thought "y'know what, I don't need this anymore" and threw it out.

^^; Sorry I was looking for it.
Just needed something to connect my memories to those days.
My brain was breaking from all the memories that were rushing through me - I wanted/needed to hold something that kept them focused.

^^; I love you don't kill me~

i won't kill you... it's just....

her stuff has cooties, why did you put it with ours?

I hid it inbetween my stuff, I never let it touch your stuff. ^^;

I luv u hun~ Please don't hate me~ D:

): Ask anything you want, I'll be honest with ye.

i just feel jealous is all.... not hateful... i don't feel like i've been lied to...

i guess it's just that... you're not the only one who is going through this change, i am too...

And it's a lot to deal with.
Unaccustomed to other girls' name being said...

And it hasn't been fair for you all these years, i've had work, i've had friends....
you had four walls, a cranky mom, dud brothers, and a computer that would break all the time.


i am and always will be your jealous puppy. And that's not bad. cuz God is jealous for the people He loves. And i am jealous for you.

and i still like this new/old you

): A lotta' people were a part of my life, hun.
I had to shut them out for you, and many of them were my friends.
I still like saying their names in my head and worry about them constantly.

Mei just happens to be one of the biggest influences on my life.
I still miss her company.
But I love you now. You know I do, I know I do.
It was just always depressing that just mentioning my ol' friends got ya' so steamed.
Like I couldn't have any friends or memories that weren't about you.

I had my life too y'know.
I know it's hard adjusting to all this for you, but it's a confusing storm of emotions and memories inside me right now.

(: I'll tell you anything else you wish to know.
I'll be hesitant, but I will be honest.

And this journal section will constantly be filled with those truths now (except for any that I feel should be private between us).
Just keep me sane please, this all really sucks right now. D:

i have shut out people for you too... friends, family
i have lied for you, coerced, deceived, even ran away
i live with you

and i don't .... i just....

you are my Sweetheart, my Darling, my One and Only, my Best Friend.

and i know it sucked for you to give up everything. but you know what? we demanded it from each other, we needed each other, we need each other.

especially in those formative years. i needed all of you. you need all of me... every last bit...

what i'm trying to say is... i'm not used to sharing you. and just like you're sorting out all your new/old emotions... i do too. and, this sucks for me too...

i don't want to want to the #2 of you back. want to stick it out with #3, i want all of you....

and i don't even know what i'm saying anymore