Renn

Ok so I was going through some old stuff(well not really) on this other website and I found this. I wrote and I can hardly remember why???


""I heard someone say:"Can you not live unless you born for some purpose?"

These words really got me to thinking. Does everyone have to have a purpose in life to live? I'm not really sure. When I think about my purpose here, I can't think of any.

I like to think that I live for my family and friends, all the people who are dear to me, but that would be a lie. I think about it and think about it. What is the purpose in life?

Well there are many reasons. To live for your family, friends, lovers, your children, or for just the purpose of being.....alive.

Don't get me wrong I really don't want to die. I want to live just as any sane human being. It's just how I am. I'm terrified of death. It hurts to think about it.

Then again, death is the end, but once you die that the end. No going back, no do overs, nada. So for now I will think about my reason.""


I was like whoa!! Why did I write this?? I remeber kinda writing it but when I think that far back, I remember being depressed alot. Yes, I was depress to the point of suicide.(SHOCKER) Sadly, yes it true. My life hasn't been easy. I currantly live with my grandparents. My parents, well my father walked out on my mother. My mother couldn't take care of me, since well she had my big sister to take care of, she gave me to my dad's parents. That's how its' been since I was 2 weeks old. Now, it's very confusing when my mom and granparents are around. You see I think of my grand parents as my Mom and Dad. That what i call them too.....

Here I am telling you guys about my life....^^" Sorry about that. I know many people around the world have had it much worst.

Well thanks for listening to me!!

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equinn

well i know what u mean renn i know for a fact i untill my bf came into my life i had nothing i was worth nothing in life i was actuly really depressed and didnt really trust men....(my ex most know about the cheating jack ass (john) ) but now i know in my life i wanna get my gcse's atlest and maybe alevels or so and then live with my bf and my perpouse in life is gonna be looking after my bf in many years to come and our childrend when we have some so that i figured is my perpose

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!Rave_Grip

My purpose in life is to not die, and find a reason in my existance. Even if it means living away from civilisation.
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ayu

Have you found your reason yet Renn? o.o

Renn

Hmmmm??? Nope!! XD lolz not really. I mean I'm not like I am before. I don't feel like I have a reason. But I'm fine with that. That doesn't mean I won't find a reason. When i think about, it kinda reminds me a video game(cheesey I know but it's true ^^). Sometimes going on a journey helps finds one's reson for being here.

I am going to deep?? People say that all of the time. They say I should act more my own age(which I do!!) They say I can go way to deep or serious. I'm only a kid once XD

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equinn

i got stuff like that .....some ao'er thought i was 20 odd once ....long story T . T really but renn u will fina a perpous

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Soshi Kitai

You don't need a purpose to live.
Hell, a lotta' people live just to not die.

That's not really a purpose, that's an instinct.

Some people live to drink and be merry.
That's not a purpose either.
That's an experience.

Some people live to experience.
That's a purpose.
Though very shallow, it's still a purpose.

A human is an animal, no matter what it thinks. It's still an animal, it's still a creature. Until it changes all its organic material (brain included), it will always be so.
And as such, a human, like any other animal, has the instinct to live. To feed. To rest. To procreate. Then die.

It survives on this instinct alone.


Us humans have added more to that, but that base is still there. That foundation is always there.

...that's why us humans tend to have a hard time committing suicide, our instinct refuses us from doing so. It wants to live. For what? It's not sure, it just wants to live. Just like any other creature, we want to live.

It doesn't need a purpose, it just wants to live.

If we only have a strong enough "heart", "spirit", "soul", "will" then we can go beyond what ALL our instincts say.
Already us humans have refused several instinctual decisions by adding in our selfish wants, our picky needs, our opinions, and etc.
But those little decisions don't stop us from making the true instinctual decisions.


A person would REALLY WANT TO DIE, or so SURE HE/SHE'S READY TO DIE, in order for them to kill themselves with no fear. ...unless of course, they're afraid of pain. ...then they're not so much afraid of death, just the pain that comes before it. ^^;

In order for a human to truly LIVE, they must be ready to DIE at any moment (not in a depressing GOTH or EMO way... in a satisfied way).
If one doesn't accept death, they don't accept life at its fullest.



My purpose? To live with my darling. And die with my darling.
And if there's a life after such, live again.
If there's judgement, then stand confidently.
If there's nothing, then let nothing come - life was beautiful.

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fayt lingod

Its a good thing i finished reading this before replying... I think you have it right. Except, i don't think you can truely call it "living" until you have a purpose, no matter how temporary or shallow it may be.

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thanks to zyta for the sick sig and avy!