I hurts to see where people place priority... Who they allow themselves to "forget". Who they are willing to toss aside... who they're willing to let walk away.
It hurts even worse to know that the someone who would let you go, was someone you tried so hard to hold on to.
In your situation at least said person wants you to believe they're sad over not having you around. Lucky you?
I understand the feeling of hurt. I had been doing far to much, and hoping for far to much in return. Trying to really love someone.... the way you'd like to be loved... and not getting it back. Some people think that's a righteous way to live. I know from experience tho..... it hurts. I don't care how righteous one claims to be... we all wanna be loved back.
I guess I just get to a point where..... any love I feel, for a person who won't return it...... will just be that unspoken, unseen kind of... distant love. That way there is no expectation of the favor to be returned.
One thing I know for sure...... I don't want my children to ever feel how it feels to love someone beyond comprehension.... Only for that person to disappoint them. I know life is full of disappointment... But I can do what I can to protect them from as much as I can of it.
My only advice to you would be, LET GO. Its been hard for me to let go of certain people in my past. Past situations.... Mainly because I kept finding myself in the present... dealing with the same person, and similar situations. my past\present\future.... was all a blur. I wanted him to fix what was broken in the past.... so I could enjoy my present with him, and build a future.... the problem is... that all required HIM to be on the same page. And he wasn't... and I cant change that. But I can remove myself.... and now..... its like the broken past is something Im detached from, rather than something I'm hoping to fix.
You've had the luxery of MOVING ON!..... But.... you really haven't... No matter where you end up in your friendship endeavors. Do take advantage of the CURRENT man you have... and do go letting the past foil that. ...... I KNOW THAT WHAT I PLAN ON DOING! <3