what is love anyway. i may be pessimistic but, i think i do believe in love. Emotions aren't exactly my thing and normally i just close off my emotions.
when ever i talk to her i really don't know how to act other than be normal. this girl i liked for 2 years and i never said anything because she already has a boyfriend. but i got over her for a couple of months during those 2 years and i just close those feelings away instead of inviting them. but it just comes back in full force.
she had everything a guy can ever want. beautiful, great personality, everything. and the feelings i felt, i wasn't sure if that was love or just a crush.
it's too bad i never said anything. then again, i think it would have been better if i didn't say anything. but now i think i got over her and we would propobly all ways will be friends or just aquaintance.
those feelings i had is something of a proof that love actually exists. it may only be a stupid high school crush but even crush can devolop into love which is extreamly rare.
love is also a dangerous emotions that can lead to ones distruction or greatness. i seriously treaded that line and i thank my logic and my negative side that guided me. if i were to ask her out i would obviously know that i would only be turned down.