I would force myself all over the world, mostly America, and talk to some of the people that I've come to know as friends through various sources; Here, Playstation Network, chatrooms etc. so I could talk with them face-to-face for once in my life and feel a sense of happiness and that I got to know them as a person, and not a voice. Some of these people mean the world to me, but I don't even know them enough like some of my friends in my community. I bet I'd laugh, I'd cry and many other things. After a while, I'd just stop somewhere, and stare at the sky, provided it's night. Then I would just lay in the grass, and stare. I'd probably cry at that point too. Alone. And that would be my end, peacefully.