hm....my friend kinda posted something similar in her blog recently....maybe it's the weather?
But yes, I do feel alone dispite everyone around me, lots of people whom I know care and love me, including God (but that's not the point). But that's life, people are around you, living and struggling just as you are, their priorities will always be themselves, unless you reach out...and talk to them or grasp their attention. It doesn't mean you're not loved, doesn't mean they don't care...just means, only you truely understand yourself, only you know what your deepest darkest fears are, only you live with yourself, every step of the way, only you understand that which you understand, perceive what you perceive, alone in your struggle through life, tho among everyone else going through the same struggle. Alike, but unique.
The one thing I learnt very early on, is that if you wish to not feel alone, reach out. People don't know you're drowning unless you yell out or when it's too late. Everyone has friends, it just depends if you let them be your friends or not. No one can really help you unless you let them. Sure people seem too busy, too occupied, too troubled by their own little world. But speak up, don't be scared. Your friends would rather you do so, than be afraid to distrupt their mundane lives.
As for standing proud and fighting for what you deem right...you'll only lose that battle if you admit defeat. There is no end to that fight, don't bother looking for one. You live your life standing up for yourself, the ones you care about and your ideals...it's a life long battle, with no real winner. I mean, we all die. All we're fighting for is to make a difference, however small, however irrelevant...it's a big deal and very relevant to someone somewhere.
All I can say is, take a deep breath and wake up to a new day, new opportunities.
Do not assume that (s)he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His/Her life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, (s)he would never have been able to find these words.
-- Rainer Maria Rilke