My first real post and it's an angsty rant.
Is this my life? Is this how it's going to be? Get up, go to work, come home and be too exhausted to do anything. Everyone and everything else will fade away. I feel like Im losing everything, and next will be my mind. Im too afraid and confused to move.
Im nobody's freind. Im just a tag-along, people just have to deal with me.
I wish I were happy. I wish I were energetic. I wish I were sure of just one damn thing. But something stubborn in me won't let go and I can't fight it off.
Now I want to run away and collapse in the arms or someone I know cares, but I'd be running forever if I tried. Sometimes I think I could go to those I care for... but for some reason a part of me isn't even sure of that.
I don't know why I am this way.. I can't open up to the people I should be closest to. See how Im telling this all to strangers?
How can anybody live this life? It's work and sleep and barely time to do things you want, that make you feel alive.