Thread: [Poem]No a care in the world.

[Just to let anyone know who is attempting to read this--it's quite long.]



---Not a Care in the World---

I hate it when People say,
"How do you not care?"
Because you know, I don't care
about anything or anyone.
I have no emotions.
I have no feelings.
I am a cold heartless fool
with a plastic smile and an empty stare.

No, I don't have a heart
that can be stolen
and broken
and ripped
to pieces and thrown
listlessly on the ground
where it can be stepped and spat on
with no mercy.

I've never gone to my room and cried
my eyes out from pain so terrible
and have them so puffy that I
could barely look
at my tear-streaked face
through the mirror.

I've never had a thought
so meaningful that I jumped
with joy from the shear happiness
that I knew I had a mind of my own.

I've never had a crush
and wanted to just run
to that special someone
and give them my greatest kiss
I could give for the first time.

No, I've never cared.

I've never been in love.
I can admit to that.
But I've felt things that were so close to it,
I almost thought I could be.
And I was scared.

I can admit to that.

And I've never been kissed.
I can admit to that.
I'm not in a rush for it to happen,
but when it comes I do believe it will be...

one of the most greatest moments
I will never forget.

I can admit to that.

I've done a lot of things
that I forget or regret.
I can admit to that.
I've been stupid
and naive
and immature
until no one could
stand me anymore.

I can admit to that.

I am a quiet person.
I can admit to that.
Everyone knows that about me.
I don't speak
unless I have something to say.
That's just how it is.
I can seem shy, boring, or stoic
or all at the same time.

I can admit to that.

I may LIE about it.
I can admit to that.
That I wasn't listening so
you wouldn't ask me
anymore questions
that were just too emotionally difficult
to answer with words
that you'd only twist and mangle
until they weren't
my words anymore.

I can admit to that.

Yes, I don't say a lot.
But I feel so much.
I don't show a lot
of what I feel or think.
It's just not me.
To those who are strangers...

It's just not me.


I hate it when People say,
"How do you not care?"

No, I've never cared.

---end.



This was actually something I just posted in my lj because I was feeling....more than I could handle. I don't know if it makes any sense at all, but..I'm sure others have felt the same way.



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