Well...I thought about suicide a LOT in 10th grade...started off as joking around until I found myself really considering it. Nothing ever happened as I saw how selfish it is and I guess I hung on long enough to see things change and get better.
For me it was pressure of school/grades and parents...on top of the fact that my friends just happened to drop me left right and center at the same time. Having no one to really talk to was tough. The closest friends you depended were no longer there and were in fact even part of the root problem. It was to the point where a teacher which my friends and I were close with (also happened to be our coach) decided that everything was my fault...(I ended up flipping out on her in front of her class). I hung on, some things got resolved...and my friends and I all grew up a lot that year.
It IS something that's selfish because...when you really think about it...there are MANY problems in the world that people deal with every day. No matter how bad you feel how depressed you feel, someone at least is feeling the same. What gives you the right to throw up your hands and just give up? when everyone else is walking down the same path called life? Opting out is not seeing the whole experience through. You can't complain that you amounted to nothing just because...it ISN'T the end of the story. If you kill yourself, your amounting to "nothing" is only because YOU made it that way. You killed off your only chance of making a difference in this world, making a difference to someone in your life that you might've met somewhere down the road. I'm sure one point in their life everyone would want to opt out. For that fleeting second (for some) if everyone just opts out and kills themselves this world would not be functioning the way it does today. Someone's depression isn't any one person's fault. If you didn't reach out to your "friend" then you should bare some part of the blame. If you insisted on bullying that kid in your class, or even stood by as they were bullied, you're also part of the blame.
again...my two cents...and more >.<