Afraid of Change

When night falls,
Upon my dreary head.
I toss and turn,
Till sunrise.

I dreamt of you,
But you were no where near.
I curl into myself,
Wishing you were here.

Covered in silk and satin,
Not nearly warm enough.
Thinking over,
Everything I have done.

When was it,
That you said you cared,
How long has it been,
Since you said you loved me.

I feel like I,
Yes, I betrayed you.
You deserve better,
But like you, I could never forget.

There are times,
I cry,
Thinking,
Wondering if I had taken a different path.

Would you be happy,
With me?
Definately,
Things would be different.

It's a fine,
But equally as thick of a line between us.
What kept us apart?
Change...