I will post something that
many might not view as agonizing but in my mind would be unmistakable
unbearable agony. If you do not understand why I find this agonizing then I
suppose my poetry skills are not up to par as I had previously thought. [p.s.
some of my keys are busted so I might not notice a spelling error.]
New poem [untitled]
The way she looks
I just can't help but stare
When she looks at me
It is as thought I am not there
It is as if I am invisible
not living or breathing
like a ghost
or anything other than a human being
I feel for her
an intense burning flame
but in my heart I know
she will never feel the same
She brushes me off
with an "I'm busy" or "I've got to go, good-bye"
which is just enough
to make me break down and cry.
I will forever want
what I can never have
living in an incomplete life
lonely and sad.
Older poem here titled [If Only]
If only I knew you cared,
I could smile forever.
If only you knew that I love you,
you would be able to live forever.
If only I'd have told you to stay
I would have made things right again.
If only I hadn't let you walk away
you would be laying next to me in our bed.
If only I'd never gone to that bar,
I'd still feel you near
If only I'd never gotten in that car,
maybe you'd still be here.
If only you hadn't died
I wouldn't feel so lonley.
If only I hadn't killed you,
I would't be hurting inside this badly.
If only we had never met,
you'd be happy.
If only you didnt know me