Thread: Angry

Warning: This is not a love poem. Its not happy as the title implies. If you don't want to read it or don't like anger leave now. This was written specifiaclly to smite someone from my past, so beware. Thanks!:

I can't believe I trusted you!
Nothing but useless scum that I should have left behind long ago
I'm angry at you, true
But more so I'm angry with myself

Think about it
Once I protected you
With everything I had
Suffered humiliation because of you
Only to come home feeling empty and unwanted

In my heart I knew
That you didn't accept me
But I couldn't accept that fact
That you just couldn't be the one
Who would shelter me in times of trouble
Be the one who I would find my home in

But no!
I believed in you
Well you can't spell believe without lie
Because thats what I got from you
What you so frequently gave me
Lies, lies, lies

I gave my heart to you
Shared almost every secret
Always humble, always demure
Taking the abuse day in and day out
I was so stupid back then

I think about the scars you carved into my heart
That will never heal under my care
They make it so hard to trust again
To open up to anyone
No matter how much I want to

You made me into a monster
Lacking the true emotion that I crave
Believing no one
I have become an abomination of this world

But even though the scars run deep
And sometimes I can feel them trying to reopen
But they are healing under someone's care
That, I am thankful for

Now I can say that I'm no longer used
Never abused
Treated with tenderness
Istead of being hated like a criminal

And for that
I am thankful