Thread: Betrayal

Betrayal

As I see them fight over you
Jealously corrodes my heart

You had an endless stream of admirers
While I on the other hand, had to counsel broken hearts
Could life get any more unfair?

Then when I had my chance
You told me to hang back, you advised me to bide my time
And yet, weeks later, I see you with him
As a pair; betrayal?

Were you just out to spite me
Were you just out to rouse bitter thoughts
After all I had done for you
Was this your payment?

I tried to shrug it away
I told you I didn’t care
I told you it was just a stupid crush
I told you that it was nothing

But deep down inside
I knew how much of it were lies
I know that none of it was the truth
I joked, but in my heart, it stung

You are my friend; You were my friend
I trusted you; yet you broke my faith
Just like the complacent British
And the deluded Singaporeans

I placed too much faith in you
I believed your words
You honeyed, consoling words
You knew the possible consequences
But you didn’t heed your friendship

You just threw it away
You left me to fend for myself
You betrayed my confidence
Have you any idea how long it’ll take
How long before I trust anyone again?

07/05/07


Written not too long ago... When I was plagued by low self-esteem and friendship troubles. While it's a thing of the past, it's a haunting memory. Friends can easily turn on us just becuase of a simple rumor, another friend, a member of the opposite sex etc. It's a never-ending line of fear...
I'm sticking to just posting poems here. It appears that there're still every little participants. Unless they all participate when I disappear from this site for a while...