Yes i know you have to leave,
You're probably on a plane by now.
I really don't know what else to say.
I have to do this for myself this time.
Amidst all that is said,
i dont know what else is true
what is said is a lie.
I can't let the tears fall
everytime i grow up and deal with pain.
I have to leave and let you be,
time for me to do a little growing up.
Don't take this bad, this isn't about you.
I have to make my way and decide.
I have to grow up a bit and make sure
I love myself fully and that my world
doesn't evolve around someone else.
It seems i will not have my cinderella story,
I had to found out the hard way
and that if i dont love myself
make my mind and heart see
I can be more than I appear to be.
I can still be your friend
as we will always be, no bad blood between us .
Friendship is what we've always had
and i know that we'll be together
but you have to understand
I have to few things to figure out for myself, for my heart and soul.
The tears will not fall
As i watch you walk away
As i see your plane leaving
I have to be strong for both of us.
I know i know if i let them flood
I will be the reason you can't go.
I have to grow up sometime soon.
But as i was told big girls don't cry.
author's note i wrote this poem based on a song i heard a few years back by fergie and well it seems only fit to put it here on AO since i have to write it down and well get it out of my system.