Breaking

Now that you've had history with me
What's the first thing that comes to your mInd?
Be honest with yourself and me
It is anger confusion fustration joy hope love?
Do you smile when I message you or do you smile because you think it's someone else?
You care about me now but what about then did you care then too or was I not important?
Is our friendship ten times better then our relationship was or ever could be?
If you could go back would you stop yourself from meeting me?
Would you?
Would you fix everything that went wrong?
I hate that I constantly think and wonder but never do anything about it
I wanna go back and cater to your every desire and do whatever you say.
Though nothing would have vhanged probably..you'd still ignore me not call me not write back keep any of your prmises.
We'd probably stil fight but i would be physical then verbal
You'd make me cry more and wish to be dead the alive.
Am I really not that prety enough to kis to hold to hug to love?
Am I that much of a lowly scum that I can't be happy?
Even the wotld's dirities lying s*** gets more action then me...all she has to do is say "hello" and you'll leave and never come back home
You kiss her but not me.
She kisses back there's nothing left to say.
The truth is the truth whether you mean it or not.
It's written there infront of my eyes each time I look the head shadders the eyes swell with such fear pain and hate-tears fall with a trembling lip.
Dont think I didn't know from the beginning about your little roundezvous.
You and I drift further and further away everyday
one step at a time-
but each each step you take to get away from me
you step closer to her and her web of lies....





To all the times I got my heart broken And for all of you if you have ever gotten your heart broken