NO! ...Dont fling yourself into the sea Chanti! Just ... cast away your burdens there.... We did that in Bible camp once. Threw our burdens (stones) into the water. Sometimes you just have to let things go to the universe....
I almost did it.
Almost talked to you.
I almost forgot.
Forgot that we're through.
I can't depend on anyone.
Especially not you.
I don't know how you could,
Could be that person yet again.
You knew my issue of security.
And never once attempted to be,
A source of strength and and dependability.
Never once provided stability.
Only the back and forth of pain
Over and over.
again and again.
But no more.
This is the end.
I'm done.
I'm beat.
The pain has won.
I'm at the edge of the sea.
Watch as I fling myself in,
Just so nothing will be.
You never really loved me/You never really cared/It was all just a game to boost your ego/Those feelings never really there/ I'm filing emotional bankruptcy/My heart can take no more debt/Theres no more "money" there to spend. === Besides tee hee SHE loves me!
NO! ...Dont fling yourself into the sea Chanti! Just ... cast away your burdens there.... We did that in Bible camp once. Threw our burdens (stones) into the water. Sometimes you just have to let things go to the universe....
... Not Ever Again...
I'm trying! I am working really hard on it actually. Trying to let go and stuff yanno? I'm so .... I donno what to call it but I can't let things go and just move on. I know this is one of my strengths and one of my weaknesses especially when it comes to people I loved and people willing to manipulate and take advantage of me. I've been used and went back for more just because I cared so much about so many people. I just odn't understand people who can't appreciate what others do for them and can't cherish it. I'm trying to learn to cherish truth, reality and my position rather then wish for something else.
You never really loved me/You never really cared/It was all just a game to boost your ego/Those feelings never really there/ I'm filing emotional bankruptcy/My heart can take no more debt/Theres no more "money" there to spend. === Besides tee hee SHE loves me!
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