Damn it. >< sorry for emailing you... -sighs- And sorry for emailing you now... >< although you probably don't even read them and have moved on... Would forget about me if i'd leave you alone long enough... You don't know how many times i'll be sitting here getting ready to text you, all i have to do is hit send and then i remember.. i can't. -sighs- You really know how to hurt someone Aj, i just never thought I'd get hurt by you... I thought you would always be there for me and stuff... Help me along the way when i get stuck.. things like that... bu i guess i was wrong. I guess i shouldn't have trusted you so much... I guess you learn from your mistakes right? .... I know i shouldn't be emailing you this and it's not like you care anyway, you could probably care less if i fell over dead right now... -shrugs- wouldn't be the first i at least thought about it.. I wonder how long it actually takes for someone to die after they cut their wrists.. I've attempted it a few times.... oh. wait.. My bad, i don't think i told you about that. Oh well, like i said you could care less. Ya know, It still hurts... It'll always hurt, every time i think about it, it'll hurt.. I feel guilty too... here, the one who got hurt, the one who is just a small lil fragment in your life, feels guilty... Man, that's something right there... >< I wonder sometimes if things would have happened differently if i had told her what i wanted to, if i had told her that yeah, i like him, so what? Big deal.. Doesn't mean anything,.. and the way I almost always end in love ya or something like that. It's just what i do ya know... but hey, she don't care and neither do you.. Damn, i wrote to much and probably I lot I shouldn't have... Especially considering you probably didn't even read it. Just threw it away or whatever..
>< Anyway.. I think i've written a lil to much as it is so... I'm sorry about sending you the email with my new signatures on it, Not that you opened it anyway. ><
Since it's dangerous to put love like i normally do...