Thread: have you ever wondered why

well this poem isn't as good as the past ones , this one doesn't build onthe same thought or idea , it continuesly changes from a thought to another,,
ps , i read some say in a reply , { you must really love someone} here's the truth
i never been loved and never loved , everybody likes to reject me how can they fall for me ,, poeple misjudge for looks or sounds or the way you dress ,,
anyways hope you like the poem
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i fell welling up inside
with everything thats has built in the light
as i wonder and wait
in the cold nights
and the suns first worm lights

i see the sky
and wonder why it's so high
i laugh and say : this is not a lie
i wonder if i die
who would cry ?

what is death ?
i wonder if it's just a myth

is there any meaning for this
i wonder each and everyday
who would be my friend

i wonder if this is why i cry
is this the reason i want to die?
i lost hope
i lost my will

to come and think about it
i wonder why i'm locked in this world
a world built on my thoughts
a world that could never come true

a world i built when i felt so desprete to belong somewhere
a world i could see no-one in with me
even so and i belong

but why
i am living in a lie
i would like to know why

in my wonders cry
tears that are so dry
tears that even people think that they are a lie

as i try
to testefy
the reasons why

before i go away
in this rainy day
i will try
to fight this feeling away

and not die
and not to surrender to everyones lies
just to look forword

to look forword and know and not wonder why ......