Thread: How come I'm alone?

How come I'm alone?
How come no one likes me?
I wish I knew the answers
I wish I knew how to fix it
I wonder what's wrong
day in and day out
what do I need to do different?
How do I need to act?
Should I be someone else?
Or should I just give up?
But that's not my nature
I'm a fighter
not a snail that crawls into my shell
How come I want to hide?
How come I want to run?
I want to get away,
far away from here
where no one knows me
and no one will judge me
Is there such a place?
I don't think there is
but one can always hope
I sit here alone in the night
wondering what is wrong with me
no one ever cares nor will they ever
there's a hole in my heart waiting to be filled
I fight back the tears
hoping no one will notice
while at the same time I wish they would
Why doesn't anyone notice?
Why can't they see me for me?
And not some rumor that everyone believes
do I need to change? Should I change?
I used to think not
but now I'm not so sure
they all rush past acting like I don't exist
maybe I don't
maybe I don't allow myself to
What do I need to do to make you notice?
Just once, one time
I want to feel like I belong
my heart is empty and it waits
for how long I ask...
a year? A month? Tomorrow?
To me it seems like an eternity