Standing before the mirror
Its like I'm floating outside my body
Watching the blood dripping from my wrist
The pain from the cut no longer enough
To make me feel better
To calm me down
I don't feel it anymore
It doesn't help
But I do it anyway
Just hoping it will make a difference
Just once I wish it would help
So I didn't have to struggle with everything
That I could forget
Even for a few minutes
That all I could feel
Was the blood dripping from the incision
Cuz its better than feeling this