Thank you for sharing this rave. It was personal, but it was very heart felt. And it pulled out many emotions and memories. And even though you "don't care" I hope you don't mind my commenting.
That reminded me of how I felt about my father when I was young. I used to hate him. I used to fight him back. I stopped being scared. Hes even put his hands on me while I was pregnant.
It took me having sons of my own... who go day by day without the influence of a father. For me to have even an ounce of respect for my own. But looking back. Even with all the hatred I felt at times. He was there when I needed a "daddy" to protect and help me (and I didn't have to wait or wonder where he was). So, I guess Im thankful for that. Because I see that my children arent as fortunate, and I know eventually they'll want\or need the help of a man. It is something that I can't provide.