Losing myself

The heart that cries a wound,
Pounding relentlessly my mind.
It crept upon unknowingly within,
Yet I could always feel it coming.
Looking in the future,
Remaining in the present.
Wondering what step that would not fail,
Gracefully I attempt to find a footing.
Vivid are my desires that remain without an answer,
Force of habit, they remain on the drawing board of life.
Drastic changes call unearthly strenght,
Heralding what may never be...
Not looking, sitting back in my mind, hearing out what truly is,
I try not to waver, the lake is yet to overflow, holding tightly this feeling.
Can there be no grasping of an inner destiny,
Or is there no meaning behind this single note that reflects my whole existance.


Inspired by:

YouTube - Olivia inspi' Reira (Trapnest) - WISH

and the life of the artist in the clip (which I don't know very much about except that she's american/japanese and that she's chosen to play music as a profession and possibly lifestyle. That and her mix in with the anime series Nana that I'm currently listening to (which is pretty good...if you like shoujo that is....)

and my life XD


P.S.: I really need to find myself so I can become active again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow... a very nice poem...as expected by the "master poet" you better get in them poem battles man ^^ :p

Love the wording and the flow was very good.. :)

Keep it up...a very good poem as always... ^^

Ahh... At last a poem from you again. I was just wondering were you went to :D:

A nice poem... a bit confusing but that just makes me understand what you feel, the poem IS called "loosing myself" and, when you read it you really can feel the confusion and fear that comes with it...

A good work as always from you (must agree with Ray in this) and I hope to see more ^^ I hope you really do find yourself, AO don't want to miss you.

hmm... it was different.. don't think i've read much like it... but it was fantastic and i liked it. ^-^ Great work, if i must say so myself. I agree with them.. although i haven't read your work before it was wonderful, i'll be sure to look for more from you. ^-^

I had to read it a couple times to...get it so to speak. But when I did, I really identified with this poem. When I read the title I knew I would, of course, but I didn't get it the first time I read it. I really like your wording style, I find your choises very interesting. I like this a lot

I hope you find yourself soon too. It's no fun feeling lost. Especially to you. I know from personal experiance.

Wow great job! Keep up the work I cant wait to see more. it was just a bit confusing but i admired it!

To those who have read my writings for the first time and wanna read more, I have a few of my old ones stored on AO. You just have to clicking on "Poetry Corner" under my signature thingy to have plenty to compare with.

To RayMe: Glad you liked it. The wording is mostly an attempt not to be repetitive so I pick many words to represent similar things. As for flow, I listened to a song while writing and that helps to keep me going and somehow helps me to keep organised.

To Lasura: I'm glad you appreciated it even if it did somewhat confuse you at first. I'll try to make it more natural and direct so that the average person won't have to re-read it to truly get the message. As for finding myself...I am giving myself a year before I really go all out, now I'm just in a transitional phase of sorts...so AO might not see me fully active again for some time....saddly.

To BrokenLover101: A NEWCOMER has come to the poetry section XDXDXD I first and foremost welcome you to this one and only jewel that resides on the net. Animeoline is THE place to find great writers (except a few that spam and get emotional and all....but that you can find anywhere, so gotta be tolerant to some degree on that.) and great minds that offer insight on anime, international themes and contests that make you want to create sigs, avatars, wallpapers greater than ever before.

As for your comment, I'm happy you liked my little exteriorisation. If ever you want to read more, just click under my sig "Poetry Corner" and you'll find most of my OOOOOLD work.


To bratling: I think we all are lost to some extent, it's only how you manage it that will determine the path that will lead before you. For me, it's my future job and one day settling (sp?) down from my wandering. For others, it can be anything imaginable. So to some degree, we can compare and feel similar things, but each of us are unique. What I like about this is that some people want to help out, and that's one thing why I think life is worth living. To help yourself, and help others when you can. Might be confusing what I just wrote, but it just comes down to:

thanks for your reply :P

Wow that is a very well written and thought provoking poem. I liked it alot. I do hope to read more from you. Keep up the good work.