The pain that I kept hidden so deep inside now pulling me like a tide in the ocean
I thought I could trust someone with it the only thing is now he's taken a turn and ran
It's getting worse each and every day trying to keep a smile on my face so no one can see my pain
Faking each step I take to make everyone happy but yet my heart is screaming in agony
Look at my body so broken from the past what has happened playing with my mind
Never will I forget the torture you made me endure for you sick and evil pleasures
I was just a little girl at the time not able to fight back and defend myself from you
I ran from everything I though would hurt me because of your treacherous ways
You have stolen my life from me even though I am not truly dead like the others you hurt
I escaped your death but I have to live with the memories and the nightmares every time I close my eyes
I need someone to help me not think about these things you have done to me in the silence of the night
The only thing is every one runs when they learn the truth of my monstrous past.
You have ruined me for life why did it have to be me what made you chose me to do the things to that you did?
I'm still trying to recover from them because there were many more times afterwards that it happened
You numbed me from the pain of twisted men like you with their disgusting and cynical ways
Your the only one that sticks in my mind the only one I can't escape from you haunt me every day of my life
I want it to end I want to find peace and happiness like in the fairy tales but you showed me that will not happen
That there is no one out there that will love me for me and not what happened in the past
I want to tell you the pain you caused me and I hope you rot in hell for what you have done to all the little girls
To bad I can't return the pain that you have done to me and show you alittle part of my life
My scars are visible you have made me question my being alive so many times that it is sick
I hurt myself constantly because of you I abuse myself and I don't think anyone would ever want me
Look at what you have created I'm terrified of life now because of what you have done.
I don't even try to be happy because I'm scared of what might happen to me what if it happens all over again
You went back to my mothers bed like nothing had happened while I cried myself to sleep at night
Warning me not to tell her or you would take me away to were I would never be found
I was a little girl no older then 5 at the time and you treated me like your property like you owned me
I was just happy when we got away even though you weren't the only one that did these things to me
Atleast I thought it would be different and I would fall in love and have someone to care for
I'm tired of running from this I can't do it any longer the pain is overwhelming me and I'm scared of it
No one can help me but myself no one can show me what to do with my life
I will put you in the past and keep it locked up inside of me for the rest of my life I'm tired of losing the ones I love to you.
Sorry guys but I had to get this out and I think a poem was the best way.