The pain you caused me

*Ky-lyrra* · Mar 20, 2007, 11:53 PM

The pain that I kept hidden so deep inside now pulling me like a tide in the ocean
I thought I could trust someone with it the only thing is now he's taken a turn and ran
It's getting worse each and every day trying to keep a smile on my face so no one can see my pain
Faking each step I take to make everyone happy but yet my heart is screaming in agony

Look at my body so broken from the past what has happened playing with my mind
Never will I forget the torture you made me endure for you sick and evil pleasures
I was just a little girl at the time not able to fight back and defend myself from you
I ran from everything I though would hurt me because of your treacherous ways

You have stolen my life from me even though I am not truly dead like the others you hurt
I escaped your death but I have to live with the memories and the nightmares every time I close my eyes
I need someone to help me not think about these things you have done to me in the silence of the night
The only thing is every one runs when they learn the truth of my monstrous past.

You have ruined me for life why did it have to be me what made you chose me to do the things to that you did?
I'm still trying to recover from them because there were many more times afterwards that it happened
You numbed me from the pain of twisted men like you with their disgusting and cynical ways
Your the only one that sticks in my mind the only one I can't escape from you haunt me every day of my life

I want it to end I want to find peace and happiness like in the fairy tales but you showed me that will not happen
That there is no one out there that will love me for me and not what happened in the past
I want to tell you the pain you caused me and I hope you rot in hell for what you have done to all the little girls
To bad I can't return the pain that you have done to me and show you alittle part of my life

My scars are visible you have made me question my being alive so many times that it is sick
I hurt myself constantly because of you I abuse myself and I don't think anyone would ever want me
Look at what you have created I'm terrified of life now because of what you have done.
I don't even try to be happy because I'm scared of what might happen to me what if it happens all over again

You went back to my mothers bed like nothing had happened while I cried myself to sleep at night
Warning me not to tell her or you would take me away to were I would never be found
I was a little girl no older then 5 at the time and you treated me like your property like you owned me
I was just happy when we got away even though you weren't the only one that did these things to me

Atleast I thought it would be different and I would fall in love and have someone to care for
I'm tired of running from this I can't do it any longer the pain is overwhelming me and I'm scared of it
No one can help me but myself no one can show me what to do with my life
I will put you in the past and keep it locked up inside of me for the rest of my life I'm tired of losing the ones I love to you.

Sorry guys but I had to get this out and I think a poem was the best way.

*Rave_Grip* · Mar 21, 2007, 12:01 AM

Eh, it's scary I have to admit. I like it even though it's long.

*Shinigami's_Angel* · Mar 21, 2007, 12:13 AM

Wow.This is so very dark and sad.I liked it though.The emotions that were put into this were so strong.And I do believe the best way 2 get something out is 2 write about it.

*Ky-lyrra* · Mar 21, 2007, 12:35 AM

Yes but it still didn't get everything out. I still feel like it's pinned up inside of me. Thank you for your comments though Rave and Angel.

*CherryBlossom18* · Mar 21, 2007, 02:42 AM

A very scary and dark poem,but it was still pretty good.

*Kasai* · Mar 21, 2007, 02:55 AM

Wow. The lack of punctuation ruined the flow. I couldnt get pass the first two lines.

*RayMe* · Mar 21, 2007, 03:20 AM

Man~! awesome poem... It really expresses how u feel... but i can't understand it whole because i have never been through something like that
but still it represents what u felt and all those anger... chanelled in. I can taste it... and i don't know what to say... ~.~ really sad...

*Ky-lyrra* · Mar 21, 2007, 10:15 AM

Thank you for your comments and I'm sorry that you did not like the flow of my poem Kasai.

!The White Wolf · Mar 21, 2007, 10:52 AM

Ky-chan I am so sorry for what you had to endure. But the past is meant to stay in the past. I hope you get over it, ky-chan. And let it rest in peace.

And I hope the ****** burns in hell.

*Ky-lyrra* · Mar 21, 2007, 10:56 AM

I know I hope so to but unfortunately my past haunts me every day.

!The White Wolf · Mar 21, 2007, 10:59 AM

Mines does too, ky-chan. Trust me sis, I know what you mean. And I feel for you. It must have been horrible going through such terrible times. But things happen... sometimes to better us. Sometimes for unknown purposes. You needed to let it out, and you did so through this poem. It was a great poem, ky-chan. And don't you forget.. just as you are here for me... I am always here for you.

Mar 20, 2007, 11:53 PM	#1 (permalink)
Ky-lyrra Lost In My Own World Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Fruityville, Florida Posts: 1,532 Thanks: 4 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post Credits: 5,282	The pain you caused me The pain that I kept hidden so deep inside now pulling me like a tide in the ocean I thought I could trust someone with it the only thing is now he's taken a turn and ran It's getting worse each and every day trying to keep a smile on my face so no one can see my pain Faking each step I take to make everyone happy but yet my heart is screaming in agony Look at my body so broken from the past what has happened playing with my mind Never will I forget the torture you made me endure for you sick and evil pleasures I was just a little girl at the time not able to fight back and defend myself from you I ran from everything I though would hurt me because of your treacherous ways You have stolen my life from me even though I am not truly dead like the others you hurt I escaped your death but I have to live with the memories and the nightmares every time I close my eyes I need someone to help me not think about these things you have done to me in the silence of the night The only thing is every one runs when they learn the truth of my monstrous past. You have ruined me for life why did it have to be me what made you chose me to do the things to that you did? I'm still trying to recover from them because there were many more times afterwards that it happened You numbed me from the pain of twisted men like you with their disgusting and cynical ways Your the only one that sticks in my mind the only one I can't escape from you haunt me every day of my life I want it to end I want to find peace and happiness like in the fairy tales but you showed me that will not happen That there is no one out there that will love me for me and not what happened in the past I want to tell you the pain you caused me and I hope you rot in hell for what you have done to all the little girls To bad I can't return the pain that you have done to me and show you alittle part of my life My scars are visible you have made me question my being alive so many times that it is sick I hurt myself constantly because of you I abuse myself and I don't think anyone would ever want me Look at what you have created I'm terrified of life now because of what you have done. I don't even try to be happy because I'm scared of what might happen to me what if it happens all over again You went back to my mothers bed like nothing had happened while I cried myself to sleep at night Warning me not to tell her or you would take me away to were I would never be found I was a little girl no older then 5 at the time and you treated me like your property like you owned me I was just happy when we got away even though you weren't the only one that did these things to me Atleast I thought it would be different and I would fall in love and have someone to care for I'm tired of running from this I can't do it any longer the pain is overwhelming me and I'm scared of it No one can help me but myself no one can show me what to do with my life I will put you in the past and keep it locked up inside of me for the rest of my life I'm tired of losing the ones I love to you. Sorry guys but I had to get this out and I think a poem was the best way. __________________ ™Mommy To Micah!™ Thanks For The Tag Aiora!
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Mar 21, 2007, 12:13 AM	#3 (permalink)
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Ky-lyrra Lost In My Own World Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Fruityville, Florida Posts: 1,532 Thanks: 4 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post Credits: 5,282	Re: The pain you caused me Yes but it still didn't get everything out. I still feel like it's pinned up inside of me. Thank you for your comments though Rave and Angel. __________________ ™Mommy To Micah!™ Thanks For The Tag Aiora!
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Mar 21, 2007, 02:55 AM	#6 (permalink)
Kasai Domme Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Florida Posts: 2,745 Thanks: 0 Thanked 0 Times in 0 Posts Credits: 1,616	Re: The pain you caused me Wow. The lack of punctuation ruined the flow. I couldnt get pass the first two lines. __________________ Seduced by Flesh
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RayMe 1 )3^^( )N Join Date: Jul 2006 Location: Somewhere i would love to leave right now for somewhere better... Posts: 3,606 Thanks: 55 Thanked 27 Times in 24 Posts Credits: 59,502	Re: The pain you caused me Man~! awesome poem... It really expresses how u feel... but i can't understand it whole because i have never been through something like that but still it represents what u felt and all those anger... chanelled in. I can taste it... and i don't know what to say... ~.~ really sad... __________________ Legion Ketsueki Lives on~!! The best ever Lasura~! >>>myspace<<<
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Ky-lyrra Lost In My Own World Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Fruityville, Florida Posts: 1,532 Thanks: 4 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post Credits: 5,282	Re: The pain you caused me Thank you for your comments and I'm sorry that you did not like the flow of my poem Kasai. __________________ ™Mommy To Micah!™ Thanks For The Tag Aiora!
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Mar 21, 2007, 10:52 AM	#9 (permalink)
!The White Wolf Why so serious? Join Date: Feb 2007 Posts: 2,580 Thanks: 9 Thanked 12 Times in 11 Posts Credits: 10,073	Re: The pain you caused me Ky-chan I am so sorry for what you had to endure. But the past is meant to stay in the past. I hope you get over it, ky-chan. And let it rest in peace. And I hope the ****** burns in hell.
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Ky-lyrra Lost In My Own World Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Fruityville, Florida Posts: 1,532 Thanks: 4 Thanked 1 Time in 1 Post Credits: 5,282	Re: The pain you caused me I know I hope so to but unfortunately my past haunts me every day. __________________ ™Mommy To Micah!™ Thanks For The Tag Aiora!
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Mar 21, 2007, 10:59 AM	#11 (permalink)
!The White Wolf Why so serious? Join Date: Feb 2007 Posts: 2,580 Thanks: 9 Thanked 12 Times in 11 Posts Credits: 10,073	Re: The pain you caused me Mines does too, ky-chan. Trust me sis, I know what you mean. And I feel for you. It must have been horrible going through such terrible times. But things happen... sometimes to better us. Sometimes for unknown purposes. You needed to let it out, and you did so through this poem. It was a great poem, ky-chan. And don't you forget.. just as you are here for me... I am always here for you.
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