Since there's so many new people here on AO, I might as well share these with all the new faces. Hmm... Well, enjoy. Have a nice day. ~[Ih]
here's some of my old poetry
I don't know
just wanted to share
these three poems are the only ones I've ever written and finished
I haven't been in the mood for writing poetry lately
so... yeah... enjoy!?
[ dot dot dot ]
alone in my room (sitting in the dark)
my eyes begin to blur as I stare at the light
the curtains close shut
sick of the light that taunts me
everything goes dark
(just the way I like it)
tired of my empathy
I turn everything off
I try not to care anymore
alone with my thoughts
trying not to think of you
because it hurts too much
change myself for you
(kill myself for you)
bottle everything up
but it’s leaking out
don’t wanna sound like another cliché
but I just can’t get you out of my thoughts
is there something wrong with me? (or is this just “love“?)
must be the old depressed me trying to get back out
I don’t know what to do (don’t know what to say)
it hasn’t been that long, but I still miss you
I still miss you anyway…
I must sound either crazy or pathetic
you must think I’m strange or weird
why am I so different?
(why am I cursed with this empathy?)
why do I care so much?
I cry in the inside (it dies in the inside)
the depression fades away
but then it just comes back…
[ 2:15 AM ]
Bored and borderline.
Listening to sad songs.
Tired. (So tired.) But I can't sleep.
Buried in my thoughts. (Thinking of you.)
My angel who longs for her wings.
Why do you love a soulless devil like me?
Cast off from the kingdom of homemade gods.
(The church of lambs to the slaughter.)
Drifting off into the sea of oblivion.
I wait in the shadows. (Nod and smile.)
Waiting for our reunion. (Watching the clouds go by.)
Separated from the rest of the world.
Deep-seated distaste for my isolation.
My escape is in the horizon.
But it's too far a distance to reach.
Chin down (stare at the ground) as my eyes burn.
Consumed by my doubts, by my regrets.
Like vultures on a carcass.
Cadavers ripped open for all to see.
(An all-you-can-eat buffet for the masses!)
I'm falling apart by the seams.
Piece by piece, it loses its meaning.
The sum of my parts is nothing.
I've lost my worth. I've lost my reason.
Precious minutes wasted believing.
That these thoughts would just go away.
My integrity falters and my mask disappears.
My weaknesses are revealed.
Sinking faster into the depression.
Just waiting for someone to pull me out.
[ Longing ]
I can't see you in my dreams
(vague, blurred, and forgotten)
can't see you in my mind's eye
blinded by those feelings that I feel that are sad
longing for another glimpse of my angel
so all my demons can rest in peace
drowning in that sea of hurt
(that I've made for myself)
I pull myself out and I open my eyes
(hoping) to see your warm green stare looking back
you see right through me (and see me for what I am)
just for you, I shed my old skin (my old face)
my former self is comatose (a vegetable)
(an infection) still seeping into my very self
I long to pull the plug (kill him off for good)
and step ever closer to the light (closer to you)
no longer will I hide in the shade of his shadow.
(open my eyes) no longer blinded from the truth
looking up instead of down (seeing with eyes unclouded)
wishing only to be with you
longing to create more happy memories
to fill up the void