the moment your forgotten and things seem to be at there darkest isn't when you appreciate the knowledge that you are your own best friend and to have to go through life feeling like it all is so pointless and should just be ended with a simple pull of a trigger or a simple slice of the skin on the jugular .
it all seems to be so easy when you feel so alone and don't seem to affect the things around you and ending it seems so easy. but the never ending fighting or constant battles with things that never go your way is just part of life and you just have to accept it as it is and just believe that you are going to live for you and no one else.
killing yourself would be to easy and would just prove to people they were right about you. anyway that is what i got from your poem and i liked it very much
and in case there really is a problem here just know that as long as you have yourself and you trust in what you believe nothing else really matters.