Have you ever felt alone and and over-crowded at the same time
well i have and i do...
Its so confusing all of these mixed emotions, like when it rains and allyou want to do is sleep yet your restless...
All of the time i feel so alone and scared
then i think about it and wonder whats really out there.
should i be afraid or show no fear at all,
But what I'm really worried about is if i'm gonna fall.
I don't like being hurt, i really cant take the pain, but there is a reason i liken emotions to the rain.
Its like a relief when you can say the storm is finally over, like some one lifted a weight off your back, But still left you with the slack, the mess the all around Bu**sh*t that comes with Being alone and afraid.
All you want is some one to care, to just be there and take away your misery, and all of the terrible things you see...and saw.....
You want your prince,your king,the one you love, your everything, but its so difficult and you need space, but you don't wanna be alone you want some one to hold.
A person that'll be your light in the dark, your hug when your cold, to love even when your getting old.
But your still scared, to ever love again, to ever really have a "friend".
My favorite time is just after the rain when the sun comes out and erases all of the pain. All of the things that have happened...all of the stuff you've did. and makes things peaceful again, I remember a few years ago right after a storm..i stepped outside to take a glance, and looked upon the ground.....i was in shock and awe at what i found..it was the most beautiful flower i had ever seen, and it looked so peaceful and serene...it withheld the storm and its might power and lived to make after that shower..
thats how i should be, never holding back, showing the true me....