You might be special to some posters here, but to most(including me) you arn't any different than any other new member that just joined up. If you want to be special then you have to post meaningful responses. If you do like most of the other members here you will be lost in the sea of spam and forgotten.(you can replace the word 'members' with the word 'idiot')
The other thing is that you will be judged, it happens whenever you make contact with anyone else. Just try not to let it get to you.
Oh, welcome to AO. I hope you enjoy your stay. PM me if have any questions. God knows Im bored enough.