Depression is something most people play off as someone being sad or whatever. But they've obviously never seen a really sever case of depression. With some people it gets SO bad they go into a state of psychosis and start hearing and seeing things. They become almost schitzophrenic because of the depression being so bad. I had a friend who's depression embodied it's self so to speak. It at least made it's self a seperate voice and told her to do things, and how horrible of a person she was and how everyone else must be thinking these horrible things about her. I have another who suffers terribly from post-partum depression which is a different subject but along the same time. Her depression surfaces as uncontroled unreasonible anger. she never knows at what but she gets irritated beyond repair and frustrated to the point of breaking. I myself suffer from depression. Not nearly as bad as the things i've listed here. But i was diagnosed when I was eleven and incapible of leading the psychologist to the conclusion I wanted him to get at (Like I seem to do now when I see them.) so I know it's a very real thing. And not just because I myself claim this problem.
On the other hand, despite my taking medication for said problems on ocassion, I don't believe in their sucess. I've nevver found one that works the way they tell you it should. I've never felt "normal" or even okay. I just end up feeling sedated, apathetic or trapped in some cases. And with some of the meds they have horrible side effects starting with the headachs. When I went off paxil, my blood pressure went through the roof. I had cold shakes, nausea and chills even thuogh I was sweating like a fat girl in leather in the middle of summer! I felt like a drug addict getting off junk. Without the Hallucinations...
Oh...and this is my 150th post. Wooooo *does a little party dance.*
Thanks for reading my six am no sleep rambling thoughts on depression. It's a subject I take very personally.