Tula, I would have quoted yours but I forgot to click mulit quote... sorry.
Anyway. I'm sorry to say Tula I belive in that silver lining. and as I said to lapislazuli if you want to make it better and you put all you can into it... I belive it can turn out all right. Now I'm not saying that the military is the way eather. but so far its helped me. I may not know how other people have felt but I know i've had thoes days. one after the other. And saddly i'm a coward. I have attemped suicide, did it work obvisly not. But for me, suicide is a touchy subject and for other reasions. But after that time... I feel like I found my silver lineing. and while I know that people feel as if they have no choice, I pray that people will just stick around to see where life will take them.